An entire sea of water can’t sink a ship unless it gets inside the ship. Similarly, the negativity of the world can’t put you down unless you allow it to get inside you.
There are times when you start feeling discouraged or like you’ll never achieve your dreams. I tend to feel this way often, not even gonna lie. It’s hard to constantly be uppity about your work and to be confident that you’re doing the best you can when there are so many people out there putting you down or when there are so many talented people in this world. It’s not easy, I’ll tell you that.
I entered the Shoot & Share annual contest (more information HERE) for the first time this year and to feel discouraged about MY work is an understatement. Going through so many photos (they had over 250,000 photos submitted this year!) and seeing so much talent and what these people can create just baffles me. Like, how can I, a tiny fish out in this big sea, live up to what ALL of these other majestic creatures are coming up with?
But also? It’s inspiriting as all get out. Seriously, as I went through and voted for other photographer’s photos and favorited so many of them, it gradually hit me what exactly I was favoring and the style of each and every single photo. I realized what it is that I do like, and what I don’t. I felt myself craving for more wedding ring shots, drawing more towards photos with negative space, and dramatic black & white lifestyle and wedding photos. I figured out what tones and emotion that I’m drawn to and how similar my likes are with what I deliver.
2015 was an extremely slow year in my business, but I was also pregnant for almost the entire year, so that’s why, haha. I wasn’t in the mood or inspired to be as productive or in the creative process like I usually am. I was either down with morning sickness or tired and large. Nothing inspiring about that, folks, lol. Even if this contest discouraged me in the beginning, it’s EXACTLY what I need to kick my butt back into gear for 2016.
I’m making it a goal to regularly blog at least twice a week, and hopefully more, for this year. I’m pushing myself to book more weddings and just MORE shoots in general to push this creative drive that has suddenly come to light. I’ve never been more thankful for a contest, that I’m not even sure if I placed high or moderately well in, to get me back on my feet in my business and show me what I truly love doing and that I NEED to be back out there showing the world what I’ve got.
Ain’t nobody gonna bring me down 🙂